theend.

bonds.

Why do I find it so hard to let myself get close to anyone?

If I ever stop pushing people away I may be able to answer that.

passion.

What is passion? I was thinking about this question today. It may sound like a simple question, although I am initially inclined to start rattling off the THINGS that I am passionate about (i.e. food, music, health, knowledge and finding the beauty in ordinary things).  However I want to focus for a minute on where this beautiful thing comes from, on a deeper level. 

To start off this journey through my mind I will begin with a definition from Websters.   That always helps to get a better understanding of things.

  a : the emotions as distinguished from reason
  b : intense, driving, or overmastering feeling or conviction
  c : an outbreak of anger
  a : ardent affection : love
  b : a strong liking or desire for or devotion to some activity, object, or concept
  c : sexual desire d : an object of desire or deep interest

I highlighted a few words that stood out to me.  Passion itself is such a huge concept full of human emotion, in fact would it be fair to say that passion actually makes us human?

That question brings me to something else that has occurred to me. Passion for anything at all is a vital part of human existence, if not existence then certainly happiness.  Lack of passion in life is a fast track to deterioration.

I feel like this is something I need to sleep on and I will get back to as soon as I can!

Lastly, my surgery is tomorrow morning and I hope it is painless.

commotion.

"she said its like cycling in circles 
with your eyes closed
no hands blind faith is what she called it man
said life's an ocean with a lot of commotion
once you dive in, yeah it's deep

but if you can swim it ain't mattering."

- Living Legends

necessary.

"It’s in my best interest to
have the best interests of the planet in mind. It’s
one thing to be the greatest; it’s another thing to
be necessary, and that’s the aim for me. The best are the most necessary:
those who take less than they give and love more than they hate"

--- Mos Def